What if.....

What if you did not get any job?..What if you can't marry anyone?...What if no one want to help you?..What if you fail in exam?..What, what, and what. To many question in our head when our study will come to it's end soon. Many things will pop out. If you didn't have a job, no one want to couple with you, then if you do, you can't marry because you don't have money. We must have think of our future, right?. Well, nowadays, the are many alternatives for us to find a job. Every person can get a job, but it depends on the person itself whether want to accept it or not. If you didn't find the job you want, you can apply other job first while waiting for chances to apply the job that you want. As for me, before this, I work as a promoter in a  famous shopping mall in KL, it is known as KL SOGO. At first I like working there even though, actually I like working at hospital or clinic, I work there and earns money to support my life here. Then I get bored because the rules and regulation have change recently, and I don't like it. So I got a new job after that. Then I work in a banquet team in hotel such as Palace Of The Golden Horses, Prince, and The Mines. What I am trying to is, my work is too far from what I actually want, and far from the things that I studied before. I'm studying about medical and I'm going to have my diploma soon. I wish I can do part time job in any non-government clinic while studying or after finish studying. I have a friend in Sabah that have finish her form six, and she can work in a non-government clinic even though she doesn't have any diploma in medical. I want something like that too. I must get any job related to medical. I need money to pay my PTPTN loan. I want to pay it back in 10 years. RM600 per month to pay the loan and the rest to support my life. If I get married, I'll use all my salary to pay the loan, because my husband-to-be are the one that will support my life. Let say my salary is RM1200 each month, I can finish paying my loan in 5 years. I can't imagine that if I already have a baby, but still paying the loan, what will my baby eat??. A lot of money will be needed to raise a child. I think too deep about my future recently.[laugh then sigh]. Yeah, lots of things need to be done to make sure my future will be bright and brilliant. Work with little salary? Mmm..I will stress and freaked out if I work with little salary for more than 1 years. The highest salary I got working as a promoter is RM1000 in a month. I only get that much once. The lowest salary I got in a day is RM45. That is when I work with the banquet team in the hotel.  Working is tiring. Then you must hear this word "no pain no gain". So, just do any job as long as it is legal and  don't just think about your life now, but think about your future...!

LOVE

L.O.V.E.......What is love? Love has many types. Love comes from our heart (hati). Deep down in our heart. Love can be the love between you and your family, you and your friends, you and your spouse or special boyfriend or girlfriend. Love can be shown directly or vice versa. In my childhood, most of the time I get indirectly love. But it is still love right, it is only the way  I think about it. If I fall deeply when I think of my childhood, I can cry. The people around me love me but I just don't feel it. That because I'm still young and immature. The most enjoyable part was when I learn about love in Moral studies in primary school and secondary school. There I know the different way to love someone. You can hurt someone by scolding and hitting with rotan but you did that because you love the person. For example, your mother scold you then slap you because you climb the tree.The reason she react like that is because she loves you, she don't want you to fall from the tree and get injured. That is an indirect love which can't be showed directly. Another example is, when your birthday come, your parents will give you presents and bake u a cake. This is a type of direct love. So here, when someone give you an indirect love you cannot feel or detect it, while when someone give you a direct love, you instantly can feel it even the person did not expressed it in words. Sometimes love is hurt and you can't tell whether you are right or wrong. I was right when the person I like also like me, but in the end I was wrong because that person betray me. So I just let go, hatred and anger,and revenge cannot solve anything. Last week he just contact me through fb after lost contact for 10 months. He said something, like he wait for miracle to happen or something like that, to be with me again. Honestly I miss him but, it is impossible for me because I have found someone that deserve to be with me and vice versa. The person treasured me, and I just don't want to hurt his feelings. I owe him something that can't expressed in words. My life is bitter before this, and no one know the truth and the whole story of my life, because I always look happy, but deep inside my heart, I'm hurt. I'm hurt because of many things. I laugh in my anger, and walk in the rain so nobody will notice that I was crying. Ones will cry if they know my whole story. But I know there are more people out there that have more worst experience in life than my life. Just imagine you just get your salary, then someone steal it from you, isn't  you feel that you work for nothing?..then imagine, you and your fiancee are going to get married in 1 week, you love your fiancée so much, but then your fiancee       involve in an accident and died. Then imagine your whole properties burn in fire and you lost everything. If you can imagine and feel it, you can imagine what I have feel before even though I have not been in such condition. That feelings are what I feel when I lost someone I love, someone I trust betrayed me. So when you love someone, please love him or her with all your heart, don't hurt their feelings. Be graceful with what you get. True love is very hard to get, you have to cross or face many problem until you feel down and hopeless. It is not an easy way. Sometime false hope will come. Just believe in yourself. Love should be something that very beautiful and brings happy feelings. Life in this world is too short, love as you live..!

Study: Perlukan Ulang Kaji

Pernahkah anda terfikir, kenapa anda tidak dapat gred yg anda inginkan walaupun sudah mengulang kaji? Saya seringkali terfikir tentang perkara ini, dan saya sedar seseuatu. Ini disebabkan saya tidak membuat "repetition" dan membuat "repetition" tapi tidak dengan sepenuh hati. Bila kita mengulang kaji, kita mesti "ada hati" dan jangan belajar sebab terpaksa sebab ia akan menjadi satu beban yg membuatkan kita malas belajar. Kita juga mestilah mempunyai imaginasi terhadap apa yang kita sedang belajar.Maksudnya, belajar secara 3D[tiga dimensi]. Jika kita baca, baca, dan baca tetapi tidak beimaginasi, kita hanya belajar secara 1 atau 2 dimensi. Berimaginasi akan membuatkan anda lebih faham apa yang anda baca. Jika anda dapat menghafal dan menghayati sesuatu lagu, anda juga pasti boleh melakukan hal yang sama terhadap pembelajaran [study] anda. Semoga berjaya dalam pelajaran!

Laugh: Laugh With Someone

Laugh with someone could be anything, whether he or she just be your friend a minute ago or someone you have known long before that. I believe all of us has laugh with someone about something. Laugh with someone can relieve a nervous feeling. For example, when you are going to be interview. You must have the courage to befriends with any of the othe candidate, keep talking to overcome your nervous. When you talk each other, talk about something funny, laugh together, and share something regarding the interview. I guarantee, your nervous feeling will go down, and feel more ready for the interview. Not only in that situation. Laugh with someone also can decreases our stress and at the same time create a new opinion of life. Life in the world is not easy and we must have someone beside us like friends for man cannot live alone. Just think like this, "I got many problems and nobody can help me". Then as you think, you can see that there are many people out there that has greater problem than yours. You are not alone. Well its about you and your friends. How about your family? Do you ever laugh with your family? If you do, you are great. Laugh with family can tighten your relationship with family, then  you will have a happy family that cannot easily broken. Have you ever fight with your family? If you do, better stop it and 'repair' what has 'broken' for friends can be replace, but family cannot be replace. Be grateful. So, from now on, what ever bother you have someone by you side to talk with and laugh with you, you will feel relieve...^^

Love: You Will Never Know It

I hope I can tell you what I feel now...but you will never know because I told you to never search me ever again. I want to hear your deep-inside apology. Its not that you don't want to be with me.I'm ok with that, because I also don't want to be with you anymore. But do you feel what I feel?...its been five years we are going out, being together with you is all that I want until the day we decide to break and find someone else. So thats it. I feel very stupid realizing that I can't be with you anymore, realizing that I give myself for nothing. At the end I got nothing! Well, I'm glad to hear that you are doing just fine and happy with your choice to be with other girl. As for me, as a girl, it is very hard for me at first, but I know there is someone out there that can heal my heart that dying inside. Then not long before that, God answer my prayer and give me a new love. I am happy with him, he heal my broken heart. I owe him. He is too far different from my ex. He contact me everyday, he don't mind if I say I love him everyday, I like it when he also say the words everyday and never bored. He never hurt me, he never scold me even I do something that hurt him. He is my angel. I hope I can be with him, I hope I can stay with him forever. I don't want to lose someone that I had dreaming of. He will always be in my mind. He is always there when I need him. He still contact me even he was busy with his work. That what I say love, that what I mean soulmate. I love you forever and ever Redlee.

Life As A Student

Many of us think life as a student is easier than thus who have work. Well, for me, sometimes yes and sometimes no. I said yes when I finish homework, and I am free to do anything I want, when class cancel, so I have the chance to go to somewhere else, and when exam is over, so I can rest and relax all the day. I said no when I keep studying and just have good marks as a rewards, while people who already got work get their salary each month after working so hard. Well, money is very important to every students..am I right?? So what do you think about studying? What its about actually?