LOVE

L.O.V.E.......What is love? Love has many types. Love comes from our heart (hati). Deep down in our heart. Love can be the love between you and your family, you and your friends, you and your spouse or special boyfriend or girlfriend. Love can be shown directly or vice versa. In my childhood, most of the time I get indirectly love. But it is still love right, it is only the way  I think about it. If I fall deeply when I think of my childhood, I can cry. The people around me love me but I just don't feel it. That because I'm still young and immature. The most enjoyable part was when I learn about love in Moral studies in primary school and secondary school. There I know the different way to love someone. You can hurt someone by scolding and hitting with rotan but you did that because you love the person. For example, your mother scold you then slap you because you climb the tree.The reason she react like that is because she loves you, she don't want you to fall from the tree and get injured. That is an indirect love which can't be showed directly. Another example is, when your birthday come, your parents will give you presents and bake u a cake. This is a type of direct love. So here, when someone give you an indirect love you cannot feel or detect it, while when someone give you a direct love, you instantly can feel it even the person did not expressed it in words. Sometimes love is hurt and you can't tell whether you are right or wrong. I was right when the person I like also like me, but in the end I was wrong because that person betray me. So I just let go, hatred and anger,and revenge cannot solve anything. Last week he just contact me through fb after lost contact for 10 months. He said something, like he wait for miracle to happen or something like that, to be with me again. Honestly I miss him but, it is impossible for me because I have found someone that deserve to be with me and vice versa. The person treasured me, and I just don't want to hurt his feelings. I owe him something that can't expressed in words. My life is bitter before this, and no one know the truth and the whole story of my life, because I always look happy, but deep inside my heart, I'm hurt. I'm hurt because of many things. I laugh in my anger, and walk in the rain so nobody will notice that I was crying. Ones will cry if they know my whole story. But I know there are more people out there that have more worst experience in life than my life. Just imagine you just get your salary, then someone steal it from you, isn't  you feel that you work for nothing?..then imagine, you and your fiancee are going to get married in 1 week, you love your fiancée so much, but then your fiancee       involve in an accident and died. Then imagine your whole properties burn in fire and you lost everything. If you can imagine and feel it, you can imagine what I have feel before even though I have not been in such condition. That feelings are what I feel when I lost someone I love, someone I trust betrayed me. So when you love someone, please love him or her with all your heart, don't hurt their feelings. Be graceful with what you get. True love is very hard to get, you have to cross or face many problem until you feel down and hopeless. It is not an easy way. Sometime false hope will come. Just believe in yourself. Love should be something that very beautiful and brings happy feelings. Life in this world is too short, love as you live..!